I have trouble letting my mask down.
Even in front of him.

Everywhere i go, I'd smile and laugh with people.
Entertaining them, even when i don't feel like entertaining.
Always trying to go along with the flow to make things easy for everybody.

I have good friends to pour my thoughts to.
I have him to pour my thoughts to.
But why my mask if still up?

There are things which I don't know what to say and how to say. All in all, I just don't want to say anything.

It had gotten to a point where Sis commented I'm getting so pro at slotting emotions people want to see in front of my mask that it seemed so natural and effortless.

I'm such a fake person.

I'm really grateful when a really good friend of mine told me "You say things you don't mean. I've known you for so long. You're not like that." At least someone on earth knows ME.

Zzz.

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Went The Line @ Shangri-La for dinner with dar. All thanks to dad and the generosity of Sis. Food's good as usual but this time round we got to enjoy free-flow house wine and juices. =D It was on this trip that i realized the value of our dinner: Adult $88+++ per pax and Child $44+++ per pax. I was like O.O!

Sat for QET (Qualifying English Test) @ NUS yesterday morning. The first 2 sections, testing the grammar and understanding abilities, of the paper were alright. But the argumentative essay writing (section C) was very challenging. >.< I think i've screwed it up somehow. My points were messy and unorganized and i can barely remember how to write an argumentative. -.-" I'm really getting rusty at essays. =( Many foreign students went for the test too. I hope i stand a good chance to get a good grade. =X

Maths Proficiency Test coming on Monday. That'll be the death of me, i guess. >.<

The recent trips to NUS allowed me to familiarize with the places in the campus and means of getting to each location. That's good! At least i won't be lost easily. =X Also, getting from Sembawang to NUS is bearable so please ignore my previous grumbles about the distance.

Dropping by Sembawang Sec for the fund raising event by the invitation from Shermaine. ^^ It'll be a mini chit-chat session for us. =X

Dinner at Mandarine Oriental for dinner later this evening with Nana, Jessie and Wai Leng. Naughty Liling CMI. Must compensate us for your absence ok!